Zyra and big world

Woman In The Mirror

2011-08-07T10:51:00.000-07:00

I feel like uploading my self portrait. Yes yes i know it's a bit self-admiring, lol. Well, this is what I am gonna say to all of you who might read this. The sun is up the sky is blue. It's beautiful and so are you! You are beautiful and nobody has the right to make you feel like you're not.

Personal

2011-08-07T10:10:00.000-07:00

Dear Zira,

Nobody is perfect and people have flaws; they all make mistakes, it’s just nature’s laws. Your mistakes and flaws are what make you you.

Stay strong now, because things will get better. It might be stormy now, but it can’t rain forever. Things are hard. Things are difficult. You might be facing a mountain, with no idea how to climb it. Just know that someone will be by your side every step of the way. Someone cares about you. Someone loves you, for exactly who you are.

Right now, go look in the mirror. What do you see? I’ll tell you what I would see, if I were in your place:

I would see someone strong. I would see someone who’s been to hell and back, and who admits that it’s only made them stronger. I would see someone proud. Proud of who they are, of what they’ve done. Proud of their past, and headed into their future with pride.

See?

I would see someone beautiful, just the way they are.

It’s so funny how the people who know the least about you, have the most to say. Now hold your head high, say it loud, "If you've got something to say, say it to me, not everyone else. If you don’t like me, remember it’s mind over matter; I don’t mind and you don’t matter."

Love,

Your Logic. Your Brain. Your Strength.

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2011-08-02T08:59:00.000-07:00

By zyra4869 at 2011-08-02

May I Freeze Time?

2011-07-25T03:46:00.000-07:00

By zyra4869 at 2011-07-25

"I think everyone has a certain part of their life where they truly wish they could freeze time. Whether it was three years ago, today, or still to come. Whether it was just a moment, a whole day, or a whole summer. Everyone has a time in their life where they wish everything would just stop, the world would stop turning and the people would stop changing. Because to them, at that time, everything was perfect."

ART | JOG | 11

2011-07-25T03:09:00.000-07:00

ART|JOG 11 exhibition Taman Budaya Yogyakarta 16-29 july 2011

ART | JOG | 11 sets some clear distinctions with other art events or exhibitions. It mainly functions as an art fair for young artists; with the aim of promoting young artists’ achievements to both local and international art market. Similar procedures is still being applied, i.e., by holding an open call to artists and the selection process conducted by ART | JOG | 11 artistic department. There are 1770 artists who had sent applications for 3500 works. The selection process which came up with decision to select 241 works of 165 artist to be a part of the current Art fair.

read more..

By zyra4869 at 2011-07-25

Sweets

2011-07-19T10:09:00.000-07:00

My boyfriend and I had a fight this evening. It wasnt a big fight like we once had, we were not screaming at each other and we did nothing dramatic like, throwing things. Haha. Well, it was a small fight. Texting fight. Lol. Yes, it wasnt actually a 'fight' because we didnt even meet eyes. It was a silent treatment. No, it was MY silent treatment. I ignored him because he did something stupid ( which i always do, but i AM stupid. He isnt.)

We met tonite, and i promised myself to act nicely. Before he picked me up, my mom and I bickered. Guess what. My mood totally ruined and the moment he picked me up, I was not in the mood to do anything..and i just sit, with my chin down on his car.

After several traffic lights, he smiled and asked "Are u still mad at me?"

I nodded.

He picked something in the backseat of his car, it was sheets of paper and he gave it to me.

I read carefully and thoroughly while he was still driving the car:

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I smiled and then I laughed coz his letters were cheesy yet super sweet, and when I was about to ask him "what's the surprise?", I turned to him, and he pulled out roses out of nowhere and said..

"I am sorry, baby" and he smiled.

By zyra4869 at 2011-07-19

Girls, told ya I'm the luckiest bitch.

and,

To my super sweet boyfriend Firas: I love you. More.

Nine Kisses

2011-07-10T09:10:00.000-07:00

source: http://vehandojo.tumblr.com/

Only reblog coz I love the story.

The Nine Kisses

i once met a man not of my single dream

i hated the hair, i loathed the skin

he tried to impress, he tried to scheme

to have nine kisses, each in different scene

whoever stops first will be the loser

whoever falls in love will be the loser

whoever completes without falling

will be declared as the one winning

i accepted the challenge with a kiss

the kind that binds my tongue with his

it was five minutes in the back seat

of an old Volkswagen that’s dimly lit

i bumped into him a month later

in a seedy bar called Never After

i ordered tequila to the bartender

and made the man’s lips salty all over

the third one came after high school graduation

i was in my uniform, in the mood of a celebration

he spotted me with my peers in a parking lot

he came to me, his tongue went down my throat

we exchanged numbers merely because

coincidental meetings were too exhausting

he arranged for me to come to his house

we had wine, and the fourth tongue wrestling

he asked what i wanted to be beside a street whore

i said anything that can take me out of this door

out of this place, to the world i want to explore

he supported my idea, and kissed me once more

he gave his baby a final hug, and he left his wife

i heard he did it to embrace his own life

the next christmas he gave me another kiss

“i’m going for a long while to paris.”

we didn’t write, we didn’t keep in touch

we thought we’re not the kinds that do as such

eight seasons later he found me online for fun

he’s back in town, and we had the seventh round

by the time we had our eight one

it was a supper in a Thai restaurant

i was twenty two, and he was thirty five

i’ve broken ten hearts, and he’s divorced one wife

we grew tired of the game and so we decided

to had the ninth kiss right away, to get it done

we stared at each other, and we concluded

we were both winners, and we’ve had our fun

we parted with no trace, with no heart

he moved to another town, to another start

we parted with no history to keep

i moved on with the life that’s not so deep

i’ve tried finding it down under, i’ve tried europe

i’ve pissed the liberty, and i’ve pissed the pope

i’ve met the sphinx, i’ve climbed the Angkor

i’ve been to the desert, and i’ve been to more

i started writing, putting my name on the paper

i was thirty when my first book hit the bookstore

i was a small sensation, not some hot shot rapper

but to some forty-somethings, i wasn’t a bore

old friends, old aunties, and old folks came

to celebrate this thing they called fame

new boys, new men, and but what a shame!

i realized i was hoping for an old flame

“i like your pictures, i like your stories,

i like your poems, i like your sketches.

i’ve been holding this email for many worries.

i’m afraid i’m just a name among the many faces.

i write this with no agenda, no expectation

i write this merely to make some clarification

that in our game i had actually been down,

and i had been a loser since our fifth round.”

i packed my stuff, and gone rushing

i broke the traffic that’s maddening

i found the seat, took one hour flying

and followed my trip with one hour driving

to a house that’s just tiny but enough

where i knocked the wooden door, and see

the man that’s not of my single dream once again

i said, hey, it’s not the time to get tough

i’ve come from all around the world to say this only

i’ve lost the game too since i don’t know when

NOTE TO SELF:

2011-07-08T23:14:00.000-07:00

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Is It Alright That I Love Animals Way More Than I Love Humans?

2011-07-08T00:00:00.000-07:00

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Anyhoo, I love my boyfriend a lot more than i love animals coz he is way too adorable. Look, look.

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Economics Jazz 2011

2011-07-07T22:59:00.000-07:00

Economics Jazz 2011 is the first international jazz event ever held in Jogjakarta. Lucky me, i was one of the photographers of the event. Therefore, i would like to show you my work.

Drumroll please.

Welcoming,

Michael Paulo

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Fariz RM

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Barry Likumahuwa

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Once

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Citra Scholastika

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..and the organizing committee!

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Good event, good friends, great captures. Right, right?

I Love You

2011-07-06T03:08:00.001-07:00

By zyra4869 at 2011-07-06

"You say that you love rain, but you open your umbrella when it rains. You say that you love the sun, but you find a shadow spot when the sun shines. You say that you love the wind, but you close your windows when wind blows. This is why I am afraid, you say that you love me too.”

-William Shakespeare-

Date a girl who...

2011-04-25T22:22:00.000-07:00

“Date a girl who reads. Date a girl who spends her money on books instead of clothes. She has problems with closet space because she has too many books. Date a girl who has a list of books she wants to read, who has had a library card since she was twelve.

Find a girl who reads. You’ll know that she does because she will always have an unread book in her bag.She’s the one lovingly looking over the shelves in the bookstore, the one who quietly cries out when she finds the book she wants. You see the weird chick sniffing the pages of an old book in a second hand book shop? That’s the reader. They can never resist smelling the pages, especially when they are yellow.

She’s the girl reading while waiting in that coffee shop down the street. If you take a peek at her mug, the non-dairy creamer is floating on top because she’s kind of engrossed already. Lost in a world of the author’s making. Sit down. She might give you a glare, as most girls who read do not like to be interrupted. Ask her if she likes the book.

Buy her another cup of coffee.

Let her know what you really think of Murakami. See if she got through the first chapter of Fellowship. Understand that if she says she understood James Joyce’s Ulysses she’s just saying that to sound intelligent. Ask her if she loves Alice or she would like to be Alice.

It’s easy to date a girl who reads. Give her books for her birthday, for Christmas and for anniversaries. Give her the gift of words, in poetry, in song. Give her Neruda, Pound, Sexton, Cummings. Let her know that you understand that words are love. Understand that she knows the difference between books and reality but by god, she’s going to try to make her life a little like her favorite book. It will never be your fault if she does.

She has to give it a shot somehow.

Lie to her. If she understands syntax, she will understand your need to lie. Behind words are other things: motivation, value, nuance, dialogue. It will not be the end of the world.

Fail her. Because a girl who reads knows that failure always leads up to the climax. Because girls who understand that all things will come to end. That you can always write a sequel. That you can begin again and again and still be the hero. That life is meant to have a villain or two.

Why be frightened of everything that you are not? Girls who read understand that people, like characters, develop. Except in the Twilightseries.

If you find a girl who reads, keep her close. When you find her up at 2 AM clutching a book to her chest and weeping, make her a cup of tea and hold her. You may lose her for a couple of hours but she will always come back to you. She’ll talk as if the characters in the book are real, because for a while, they always are.

You will propose on a hot air balloon. Or during a rock concert. Or very casually next time she’s sick. Over Skype.

You will smile so hard you will wonder why your heart hasn’t burst and bled out all over your chest yet. You will write the story of your lives, have kids with strange names and even stranger tastes. She will introduce your children to the Cat in the Hat and Aslan, maybe in the same day. You will walk the winters of your old age together and she will recite Keats under her breath while you shake the snow off your boots.

Date a girl who reads because you deserve it. You deserve a girl who can give you the most colorful life imaginable. If you can only give her monotony, and stale hours and half-baked proposals, then you’re better off alone. If you want the world and the worlds beyond it, date a girl who reads.

Or better yet, date a girl who writes.” -Rosemary Urquico

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Turning Tables

2011-04-25T22:06:00.000-07:00

So, I won't let you close enough to hurt me

No, I won't ask you, you to just desert me

I cant give you, what you think you gave me

It's time to say goodbye to turning tables

To turning tables (Turning Tables - Adele)

What is happiness, by the way?

2011-03-05T21:33:00.000-08:00

By zyra4869 at 2011-03-05

this picture was taken by me at Sekaten Pasar Malam in Jogjakarta, using low shutter speed, and edited by me using Photoshop's curve..

"So, I’ve been thinking about this whole being happy thing,
and I feel like, people get lost when they think of happiness as a destination.
We’re always thinking that someday we’ll be happy;
we’ll get that car or that job or that person in our lives that will fix everything.
But happiness is a mood, and it’s a condition, not a destination.
It’s like being tired or hungry, it’s not permanent. It comes and goes, and that’s okay.
And I feel like if people thought of it that way, they’d find happiness more often."- One Tree Hill

Have you?

2011-02-21T19:52:00.000-08:00

Ever kissed someone so hard? no, not hard, but intense, you know, electric… . Ever kissed someone so electric your skin peels off and floats away, and then his skin wraps itself around you to keep you warm and it feels like velvet, and then you look in his eyes and you can see every thought you ever had looking back at you? Have you?

By zyra4869 at 2011-02-21
This picture was taken by me in the backyard of faculty of economics and business, ugm, near to the office of university head

Raining

2011-02-18T20:31:00.000-08:00

By zyra4869 at 2011-02-18

This picture was taken by me from my car.

A true friend is someone who knows you're crying, even when you're standing in the rain.

Choices.

2011-02-18T10:54:00.000-08:00

I found this interesting.

"As you get older, every choice that you made defines who you are gonna turn into. So, rather than regret the choices you already made, you need to look at yourself, and ask if you like the person you are becoming into."

By zyra4869 at 2011-02-18
this picture was taken by me at Museum Taman Pintar, Jogjakarta

Thousand Comeback Kisses!

2011-02-18T10:01:00.000-08:00

Shoot! This is Zyra Brenda writing from Jogjakarta, a city never sleeps and never runs out of fun! Ha. well, that's just over-saying. So, i'm back you people! So, let me sum up the 6 months i missed here okay?

Living in Jogjakarta is superbly awesome. Jogja rocks! I've gained weight here. Like, 3 pounds already. I am officially becoming a huge-bottomed lady.

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I love living here, the friends are nice and welcome, and you're gonna meet a bunch of the pretty hot guys here

No joking. They're everywhere and not dumb. I repeat they are not dumb. 100 percent guaranteed, they've got brains and sure as hell they're using them.

By zyra4869 at 2011-02-18
These are my jogjakarta bestfriends. From left to right: Boy,Imel,Firas,Reja (at the bottom),Popo, and me :)

I am having a hard time to catch on my difficult major, economics. It includes a lot of math and simply put, i never
like math. NEVER. But, i am trying to love it now. Working on it.

I pretty much worship my first semester classes. The people and the lecturers. Hardcore, hilarious, smart. Ah, you will find a bunch of geniuses here. Never get bored enough to stop living the life. Learning, doing,and trying new things from the master are the top list things you would ever want to kill your time.

By zyra4869 at 2011-02-18
This is my class with our one of the best lecturers we had, Anggito Abimanyu (in the middle). He teaches Economic Principle.

One day our generation is gonna rule the population.

What else? Havent i said 'i love it here too much i can never leave this city' yet? Ooops i havent. Well. I LOVE IT HERE TOO MUCH I CAN NEVER LEAVE THIS CITY.

P.S: Well, maybe i am kidding. I am still dreaming living in another country with 4 seasons thou.

Regards,

Zira

Hey! I Miss You, Man.

2010-09-11T22:27:00.000-07:00

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You're Gonna Miss This

2010-08-29T09:03:00.000-07:00

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This is a very good song, with a touching lyric.

You're Gonna Miss This - Trace Adkins
(the lyric is written from a father's point of view)

She was staring out that window, of that SUV
Complaining, saying I can't wait to turn 18
She said I'll make my own money, and I'll make my own rules
Mamma put the car in park out there in front of the school
Then she kissed her head and said I was just like you

You're gonna miss this
You're gonna want this back
You're gonna wish these days hadn't gone by so fast
These are some good times
So take a good look around
You may not know it now
But you're gonna miss this

Before she knows it, She's a brand-new bride
In a one-bedroom apartment, and her daddy stops by
He tells her "It's a nice place"
She says "It'll do for now"
Starts talking about babies and buying a house
Daddy shakes his head and says "Baby, just slow down"

'Cause You're gonna miss this
You're gonna want this back
You're gonna wish these days hadn't gone by so fast
These are some good times
So take a good look around
You may not know it now
But you're gonna miss this

Five years later there's a plumber workin' on the water heater
Dog's barkin', phone's ringin'
One kid's cryin', one kid's screamin'
She keeps apologizin'

He says, "They don't bother me
I've got 2 babies of my own
One's 36, one's 23"

Huh, it's hard to believe

But you're gonna miss this
You're gonna want this back
You're gonna wish these days hadn't gone by so fast
These are some good times
So take a good look around
You may not know it now
But you're gonna miss this
You're gonna miss this
Yeah, you're gonna miss this.

Time flies. I am gonna miss living in Surabaya or staying in Kediri at the weekend. I am gonna miss every little thing i used to do. I am gonna miss the people, their warmth and their kindness. I am gonna miss you all. Clock keeps ticking, who knows in a blink of eyes, i may have turned 25 and got married.
I am now a smiling 17-year-old girl living in a different city and having new friends, new environment,and new school. I am happy and content. I am having good times even though some are not that good, but i am taking a good look around. Because i am gonna miss this.

PS: Those are the photos i took at my dad's hometown, Kediri.

Hair-Cut

2010-08-09T08:20:00.000-07:00

I have always been babbling about my hair to my family or my friends ever since. Like,

"I will cut my hair tomorrow, for real"
" I am going to be a Buddhist. I will bald my hair"
"My hair was such a mess. I need a new hair-cut"

Yet, those were only pranks. Soon, it turned out that i loved my old hair-cut too much so i didnt cut it.

I never told anyone about this, but, I am definitely extra sure going to cut my hair when someone breaks my heart. It was like an old habit to me. Well, old habits die hard. Such a relief to me when i see myself in a different hair style. Like a pair of shoes, the good one will take you to the good place. The new hair-cut will bring the new you and i believe good things will happen to me. Hehe, silly right?

I had my hair cut a week ago. It was so short and boy-like that i was afraid my mom would nag.

When someone asks why i cut my hair, i am going to answer
"Oh, i cut my hair so i could get rid of the bad luck"

By zyra4869 at 2010-08-09

Is it broken, then? The heart?

Yes it is.

Highschool Chums

2010-07-25T05:23:00.000-07:00

Warning : This is gonna be a long long post :)

My thank-yous. For all my higschool chums. Thank you for being the black, the white, the blue, the red, the green, the pink, the grey, the yellow.
Thank you for filling my highschool life with the colors i hate and like at the same time.

1. Kakak
Adamas Vitis Nugriapri

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Thank you for the 6 years of the warmest friendship ever and... for the midnight calls you made.. Those calls alerted me than ever, coz when i picked up, i hardly could hear anything you were saying. It's not because i was sleepy, or distracted. It's because you were sobbing and crying.
Ha ha.
When you finally asked "What should i do?" (after 30 minutes talking)
I could only answer "What the hell happened to you? Tell me again, please, what? No, from the start."
Well, you got the idea.

2.Igong

Iga Purwanti

My first highschool desk-mate. Hello Iga, thank you for making me see sense through your eyes. For the smart talks and stuff about logic and dignity.
She is the first person who changed me into myself today.

"You know what? I've ever read something whacking in the holy Qur'an"
"What?" I raised my eyebrows.

She is a Moslem. There were times when she hesitated her faith being a moslem after dating his long-lasting boyfriend, the non-moslem one.
She did a kind of research about God and Moslem.

"Something like..it's much better for you to marry an ugly moslem slave than to marry a handsome rich man but non-moslem"
"True."
"Look at my boyfriend then, he is not handsome at all, he is ugly and he isn't a moslem!!"
"Then?"
"Nothing. It's just..how silly i am. I love him so much, that's it"
Note: Iga's photo was taken at my friend's blog,Galuh Pratiwi

3. Ndut
Lusitania Eka Ramadhani.

By zyra4869 at 2010-04-10

Thanks for being the ears, for the laughter, the sympathy, and the tears. Take a good care of your solar plexus. I love you.
Note: I dont have her photos using my SLR. So, i decided to put this photo instead. Ndut is the only girl in that picture.

4. Bantat
Vania Putri.

By zyra4869 at 2010-07-25

One word to describe her? Wise. Two? Wise and a grown-up. Thanks for all your movie and music recommendations. Can't live without'em!

Though her movie reccomendation has always been the opposite of mine but we both have one favourite movie of all time: 500 days of summer.

5. Vidy
Vidyana Putri.

By zyra4869 at 2010-07-25

My two-year deskmate. She's cranky and she hates the boy i like. It's funny the way she mocked and made fun of him.

"Guess what? I was sitting on the same desk with him in the school canteen"
"Who?"
"Who else?" She rolled his eyes.
"Who? Oh, him"
"Then he joked us with his boring jokes and i was just staring at him, my eyes bulged with rage and i was like, HA HA so funny"
"then?"
"Then he said i was so evil to him. Hah look who's talking!!! He's waaaay more evil than me! That selfish bastard. How can you like someone jerk like him huh???"
She's shouting at me and pointing her fingers to my face like i was the one to blame.
"...."

That was an awkward silence.

Cool desk-mate. Sure i am gonna miss your cranky mood soon.
Thanks for being my partner in crime at high school.

6. Bali.
Barry Dieo Airlangga.

By zyra4869 at 2010-07-25

Wow i could never say thank you enough for this man. THANK YOU!!! He is the one who takes me to the movie, hang out, and all.

"Bren" He called me like that. Bren. and i called him 'Lin' from 'Balina'
"What?" We were on our way home by his motorcycle.
"You sleepy, huh? You are quite"
"Actually i am kinda crying now"
I was in a difficult times back then. My head stuffed with universities, school pressure, life problems.
His head turned around and he gaped.
"What the..."
To my surprise, his motorcycle came to a halt.
"What d'you think you are doing? Go home now please!" I begged
"With you like that? No."
"I'm done crying"
"Your eyes is swelling up. Okay i' ll take you to ndut's place and when you finally genuinely done crying, text me and i'll go pick you up"
"Okay" I murmured.

Thanks lin, for everything.

7. Ginyong
Sugiyono.

By zyra4869 at 2010-07-25

Thanks for making me tougher to face life.

Thanks for teaching me how sometimes we should let things go to become a stronger person.
He is always reliable and caring.

8. Re, Ateng, and Randeng.
Ray Bestandy
M. Danny Irawan
Randa Nuriansyah

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One package. My saturday night friends!!!
I love saturday nights because of you guys :) Yap, we are 'anak gaul sutos'
They always have a way to cheer me up. Hugs!!

9. Chipa
Syifa Alam

By zyra4869 at 2010-07-25

Thank you syifa for being the best friend indeed :)

10. Aak
Rizal Ashdi

By zyra4869 at 2010-07-25

He is my soulmate, best friend, enemy, and all. It’s curious. Whenever my heart sounds the emergency alarm, he always appears.

I was like Alice in Wonderland when i met him. No, like Wendy in Neverland. It was like finding something rare and unexpected. Everytime life knocks me out, he seems to know how to turn my frown upside down, he always knows what to say to make me feel like everything is okay.

Could he know what a huge solar system he is to me? In the past two years, it's always been him. It's always been us.
Whoever guys i liked, i adored, it's always been him to get them judged.

"What? So, you went out with him?"
"Yes why, i was bored and got nothing to do, so i said yes"
"No way"
"Yes way"
"Gosh you are idiot! He's gross"
"He is nice, that's all"
"At first guys treat you nicely, stupid"
"What do ya think then?"
"Hah you are stupid, you should be with me, i knew your family and i liked you too. Be with me then"
"HAAAH grossss!!!"

Later in the days, we did like each other. But in the end, we both knew we were always meant to be friends, and not lovers.

Note: He has a girlfriend now. For his girl, Please dont get jealous of us, we are really just friends, girl :) He loves you.

The last to a boy-who-must-not-be-named. He doesnt want his name to be mentioned.

Okay,so you are an Idiot. Stupid. Double-digit-IQ-dummy.

I Miss Us :')

2010-07-17T01:08:00.000-07:00

Sure as hell didnt see farewell coming.

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See ya guys, in another chapter of our life :) Thank you for being the coolest classmate ever. Thank you for the laughter and the shoulders to cry on. I could never get enough of saying my gratitude for you. I love you, guys.

“In the end, my girlfriend became my arch enemy, my arch enemy became my best friend, and my best friend became my girlfriend. But, hey, it's high school.”
Sky High (2005) – Will Stronghold (Michael Angarano)

Q: Why do people break up?

2010-07-16T08:11:00.000-07:00

A: 'Coz sometimes, love fades.

I get this answer quite often from people i have asked. So what is love,actually? I thought true love would never last, then why do people break up? Because of 'fake' love they have been feeling? or people get bored of their lovers? or maybe they find someone more attractive than their lovers?

I dont really get through this. Is it love they really felt for the whole time? or.. is it only about finding someone better, then badabing badaboom. You fall in love for the hundredth times ALREADY. Is it soo easy to fall in 'love'?

I personally think, people break up because people forget. Forget about how much you have loved each other in the past, how much you have sacrificed, how much efforts you have given just to be with him/her, you forget your promises, and you dont even remember how you so much didnt wanna make each other hurt back then, how you hated seeing tears in his/her eyes, how you swore you would have changed the world if you could, just to make him/her no longer hurt. That's the whole point. You forget, you're bored and then, you fight, you dont trust, then, you dont even care about him/her anymore. You are fed up. (So, you cheat. Well,this is another possibillity which is the MOST possible) and what will happen to the victim here? Quite the same, They sure gonna be fed up as well while you are not a person who you used to be.

Slowly but sure,with their broken hearts and swollen eyes. Tired. They'll soon get over it by doing some work for distraction, by finding someone attractive, or by time itself.. Then, voilà..

Amazing, how 'this little inability to remember' can turn into something unpleasant, something hurt, something broken.

Notice this: Flash back. Breathe in. Ask yourself. "Is he/she worth fighting for?" If the person you love is not worth remembering, then dont. Grasp, accept, forgive, and forget. Dont push it. Everything is gonna be okay. Your efforts, tears, and prayers are somehow going to be worthwhile in the end.

The Aftermath

2010-07-09T08:11:00.000-07:00

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I'm Not Dead

2010-07-09T06:53:00.000-07:00

Hello, how have you been?

By zyra4869 at 2010-07-09

Thank you Vania Putri, for this.

I've got an award.

2010-05-04T06:09:00.000-07:00

Thank you Timami :)

Also, I think I’m in love with you.

2010-04-26T20:56:00.000-07:00

Juno: Also, I think I’m in love with you.

Bleeker: What, you mean as friends?

Juno: No, for real. I think you are the coolest person I’ve ever met. And you don’t even have to try.

Bleeker: I try really hard, actually…

Juno: No, you’re naturally smart. You always think of the funniest things to do. Remember when you passed me that postcard during Spanish class, and it was addressed like, “Junebug MacGuff, Row 4, Third Seat From the Blackboard”? And it said, “I’m having fun in Barcelona — wish you were here”? That was hilarious.

Bleeker: I was just bored. I only think school is awesome like, 80% of the time.

Juno: Plus, you’re the only person who doesn’t stare at my stomach all the fucking time. You actually look at my face. And every time I look at you, the baby starts kicking me super hard.

Bleeker: It does? Wizard!

Juno: I think it’s because my heart starts pounding when I see you.

Bleeker: Mine too.

Juno: Basically, I’m completely smitten with you, and I don’t care if I’m making an ass out of myself right now, because you’ve seen me make an ass out of myself a million times, and you still want to be my friend ;)

By zyra4869 at 2010-04-26

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Archives/2008/March

2010-04-21T07:17:00.000-07:00

The day i fell down on my knees was the moment i swore to myself..i would never fall in love again..anymore. I would never really believe in the existence of love itself. I swore to myself i would never do such a stupid thing anymore. The day i fell down on my knees was the day i learned at last. The day i swore i would never let myself forget. The day I was betrayed by the one i loved was the day i swore i would never trust anyone..no exception. The day i was hurt deeply, and i might add..inhumanely..by the one i really loved..was the day i appreciated honesty and trust.

By zyra4869 at 2010-04-21

The day i fell down on my knees, was the day i swore to myself..i would shut my eyes, learn to listen to silence, and be reborn with no senses. The day i was free.

'Maybe I know somewhere deep in my soul that love never lasts
and We've got to find other ways to make it alone
keep a straight face and I've always lived like this, keeping a comfortable distance
and up until now I had sworn to myself that I'm content with loneliness
because none of it was ever worth the risk-The Only Exception,Paramore'

pictsource: flickr.com

Closer

2010-04-18T02:17:00.000-07:00

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By zyra4869 at 2010-04-18

Taken and edited by me.
In this photo: My little sister ;)

Photograph

2010-04-11T00:12:00.000-07:00

By zyra4869 at 2010-04-11

|When I look back on my ordinary, ordinary life, I see so much magic, though I missed it at the time-Photograph, Jamile Cullum|

Best Things in Life

2010-04-04T02:52:00.000-07:00

My personal list. So, how about yours?

By zyra4869, shot with Canon EOS 40D at 2010-04-04

1. Falling in love with someone and that someone you love, loves you back!
2. Turning 17..
3. Being a boss. Ha ha.
4. Laughing till your tummy hurts.
5. Smiling for no reason :)
6. Eating junk food
7. Showering in a waterfall.
8. Sleeping under the stars.
9. Send a message in a bottle and throw it to the sea
10. Eating ice cream on a sunny day with your bestfriend
11. Dancing to music in your own room.
12. Walking on the beach, see the sunset..all by yourself :)
13. Standing in the drizzling rain, and waiting for the rainbow to appear.
14. Watching fireworks!
15. Singing along to a song on the car with your other half ;)
16. Getting an A+ for your papers.
17. The first and the last day of a school year
18. Watching your favourite tv show with your sister, and laughing all the way
19. Thinking about your future and how your marriage will be like :|
20. Starting a cake fight with your class mates!
21. Making a movie with your best :)
22. Rollerblade! Ice-skating! I miss the times when i used to rollerblade/ice skate often
23. Someone you love kisses your forehead and your eyes ;)
24. Fridaynights
25. Helping someone..in a bad or a good way! Well, at least you help right? That's the point >;)
26. Swinging on swings at the playground!
27. Sitting in a park bench, reading a novel.
28. Grow a tree
29. Living for today
30. Realizing how good life is :D

By zyra4869 at 2010-04-04

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pictsource: flickr.com

I am special.

2010-04-02T08:58:00.000-07:00

Well, i really am.

By zyra4869 at 2010-04-02

1. My life is blessed. I'm thankful for each moment God has given to me, i'm grateful for all i've already had. That's more than enough and i'm simply happy being myself ;)

2. I have a lovable family. I am not from so-luxurious-family, i dont always get everything i want. But as long as i achieve something, i can also demand my right to ask something. I dont get things easily, i have to make a real effort to get those things. My family teaches me to save my allowance and buy things based on my priorities. Things i really do need. My dad is a man whom i always look up to no matter how tall i am growing. He is a hard worker. He is the best motivator. He teaches me things that books dont. My mom is always be there when i need her. She cares, she listens, she cries, she laughs, she sits beside me when i am having lunch, and she asks how my day was. She is everything i can ever ask for. My little sister is the funniest girl ever. She has the best sense of humor. She tells how many guys who like her, flirt with her, and she thinks they are gross. She is funny. Whenever i have been crying myself to sleep, the morning i wake up with my swollen red eyes, she always says "OMG, dont say to me you've been crying all over again! You are pathetic."
Okay, i know that one hits, but at least she cares.

3. I have great friends! The ones who care, and love me for who i am. I am friendly and i joke. I am an easy-going person. I listen and i care. My friends are the greatest people i've ever known. I dont group, i socialize. I appreciate honesty and trust in friendship. Those things are rare to find. I am the kind of girl who apologizes, and forgives mistakes. My friends are the kind of people who would dare say to me "call me, and i'll be there if you are in need"
Guys, you know who you all are.. and wherever you are now, i love you, and i mean it ;)

4. I am obviously not the prettiest girl in the world. But in my world, i do pretty things. I do nice things. In the end, it's not about your outer-appearance that matters, your deeds do. Beauty isn't only come from your appearance. It's also not come from the price tag on your clothes. It's not about how 'dress-up' you dress. Your beauty comes from your heart, from within. Your beauty comes from how you treat others, how you behave. Pretty is as pretty does. If you are beautiful, but you dont do good things, you are just bad.

5. Dont judge me by my cover. I like those who give me compliments about my appearance, but if i am allowed to choose, please, people, dont just look at my appearance, look at my brain, look at the way i talk, i explain something. Look at my work. And if you gave me compliments about that, i'd be the happiest girl alive :)

6. and the last, i am special because i am myself :)

Dont let one person ruin your life, you are special, believe me. Everybody is special in their own way ;)

By zyra4869 at 2010-04-02

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Year Book

2010-03-30T07:18:00.000-07:00

Group One. In this photo: Barry Dieo , Diah Indra , Ayu Dewi, Besty Mergyaning, Citra Pertiwi, Dody Prasetyo (From left to right)

By zyra4869 at 2010-03-30

Group Two. In this photo: Fasha Haikal, Ezra Savero, Idham Wardhana, Laylatuzzuhro, Fifi Fitasyari, Hevanny Septian (From left to right)

By zyra4869 at 2010-03-30

Group Three. In This Photo: Muhammad Masykur, Muhammad Ihsan, M. Danny Irawan, Muhammad Ramadhan, Muhammad Fahmi, Lusitania Eka Ramadhani. (From left to right)

By zyra4869 at 2010-04-10

Group Four. In this photo: Rosalyna Ndyn,Vania Putri, Randa Nuriansyah, Sugiyono, Santi W, Rahma Arini (From left to right)

By zyra4869, shot with NIKON D5000 at 2010-03-30

Group Five. In this photo: Vania Putri, Ray Bestandy, Zyra Brenda, Vidyana Putri, Yuhana, Satrio Nugroho (From left to right)

By zyra4869, shot with NIKON D5000 at 2010-04-10

Rolling

2010-03-26T19:07:00.000-07:00

By zyra4869, shot with NIKON D60 at 2010-03-26

In this photo: Me
taken by: Barry Dieo Airlangga

Look, before you fall.

2010-01-29T03:18:00.000-08:00

When you love someone..please, use your mind, think twice, and LOOK before you fall.

By zyra4869 at 2010-01-29

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Using your mind means using your brain as well. Using your eyes, not only by your heart. See the reality, not only the words they say. Two silly things you’d believe are hearts, and words. I believe, heart denies truth, it can lie. It can deny the fact. When you are abused mentally, or physically by someone who claims that he loves you..and you forgive him for all the things he’s done to you only by the ridiculous reason..like..let’s say..’because I love him, because I need him, and so on’. That means you are stupid, girl. Someone who loves you with all their heart never ever ever does that to you. It’s not love. It’s a rejection. They don’t want you anymore. They don’t want you to be his anymore. Why didn’t I say love? I personally think..in this case, love can be so cliché. We sometimes misinterpret the meaning of love itself. Come on, we both know in our age (teenage), we’re only afraid of being single, being alone, so we want someone who sits beside us, listening what we are saying. We want someone who can be shown off to our friends, we want someone who can give us a ride, whom you can text every time, every hour. Only that.

Well I know sometimes, it’s hard to let go of someone you truly care about. But when it comes to an end, to a deadlock.. how can you still want that someone to be with you?
When they don’t want you back, then what you have to do is..just walk away and don’t look back. Think twice if you wanna stay in this very situation. Think twice if you want to WAIT. Guess what? They’re already loooong gone. Girls, you just missed the boat, it had sailed away. Do not ever let someone become your everything, coz when they’re gone..you have nothing. Don’t ever beg for love. Don’t ever say you cannot live without him. It’ll be funny if you say those things. They’re already gone, so why aren’t you dead yet?

I think what hurts us the most is the process itself. Don’t ever think about turning back time, it is what it is. It is not what it should have been or what it could have been. I know you think he’s the only one for you.. but you just recall your good times with him. Look, how many times he made you cry? How many times he broke his promises? Let's compare with how many times he made you happy and for how long? Maybe he said he would always be there for you, but man..they’ve got their own goddamn life ahead, and they are only..17! Be rational.
Flashback the bad ones, that's the key.

Don't force yourself too hard of trying to get over him. Just remember, time heals wounds only if you WANT your wounds to be healed.

Now they’re gone, the worldwide is all yours. In your life, you’ll do things greater than dating a boy. Go reach your dream, girl. Be strong. Love won’t go anywhere. Trust me, there is someone out there for you, waiting patiently. Someone who’s gonna take you so high :)

So, when you love someone..please, love yourself more.

PS: I am a human too. I make mistakes, this is what I’ve learned based on my experience.

Photos of Independence Day

2009-11-19T19:20:00.000-08:00

I know it's so DAMN late, but here there are.. the photos taken by me, Vania Putri, Kuli, and Barry Dieo. Those photos are not edited.

By zyra4869, shot with NIKON D60 at 2009-11-19

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By zyra4869, shot with NIKON D60 at 2009-11-19

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By zyra4869, shot with NIKON D60 at 2009-11-19

I had heaps of FUN. Whoa it's so good to be a citizen whose country is independent! LOL.
But really, it is. Not only me, but also my school celebrated it as well.
YEAH TWO DAYS OFF. Freeeedom. Go Indonesia.

Doraemon Saya Udah Pergi

2009-09-10T20:44:00.000-07:00

I had NO idea what to do when he left. I've given up on him. Well, I think giving up doesn't always mean you are weak. Sometimes, it means you are strong enough to let go and like a broken glass, it’s better to leave our complicated relationship broken, than try to hurt myself by putting it back together. He used to walk in front of me, and I couldn't catch up, but at that time, I tried to.
Deep down inside, I knew I never could. I knew, someday, there would be a time when
I said enough. There would be a time when I eventually chose one of options that offered to me. Tapi saya tahu, saya nggak perlu memilih, karena hati bukan untuk dipilih, dan hati tidak pernah memilih. It always knows where to go.

I know now we're just not meant to be and it hurts, you know? Kehilangan dia untuk kedua kalinya. Saya kehilangan orang yang paling lucu, paling aneh, paling ajaib, dan yang paling adorable. Saya kehilangan sekali :'(
I knew it was my fault, saya yang terlalu banyak menuntut dari kamu. You need to know, i hate being myself when i have to be a perfectionist. I loathe it. But.. How can't I? Saya dituntut juga. I know i am selfish, i am egoistic. Saya mau diterima apa adanya saya, tapi saya nggak bisa nerima kamu apa adanya kamu, but despite of being egoistic, I need you like drugs. Actually, saya bisa kok. Saya sayang kamu apa adanya kamu, but there are some reasons i keep denying that, somehow. I miss you like hell jelekku :( I used to believe, kalau ada sesuatu yang nggak beres, yang salah dari saya, saya tahu tempat pertama untuk mengadu, kamu. Sekarang saya nggak tahu lagi harus gimana. Everyday, i fake a smile. Jadi kamu nggak bakal ngeliat gimana sedihnya saya. I pretend that everything is okay. But, it really isn't.

Time heals, and I have GREAT friends after all, who laugh when I do, cry when I do, happy when I am, and sad when I am. But, thank God they don't nod when I do, and they don't change when I do. My friends laugh at my jokes when they are not so good, and sympathize to my problems when they are not so bad. Guys, terimakasih telah menjadi teman saya, susah senang kalian ada. I have nice friends indeed.

Out Of Focus

2009-08-16T05:43:00.000-07:00

Hello fellas. How are you? Well, i am perfectly fine. Life has been so good to me these days.
Thank God. Mmmm, did I tell you that I would buy new lens for my camera? Now I have it : )
Nikon AF-S 18-105 mm.

By zyra4869, shot with NIKON D60 at 2009-08-16
Quite cheap if it’s compared with fish eye lens. Oh my. It costs approximately 7 million rupiahs. Just for ONE lens. But I think, it’s worth it.

I’ve taken pictures a lot after I had promised myself I will learn photography seriously. I learned from
the very basic, like how to get out-of-focus photos. It’s pretty easy guys! You should try it with your
DSLR Camera. These are my out-of-focus photos.

By zyra4869, shot with NIKON D60 at 2009-08-16

By zyra4869, shot with NIKON D60 at 2009-08-16

By zyra4869, shot with NIKON D60 at 2009-08-16

*All photos were taken by me. NO EDITING ;p

Now, I’ll give you my tips how to take out-of-focus photos.
Here they are:

1. Shoot with your 55mm lens. It's better than using your wide lens. This means you can stand further back (making your subject more at ease and pushing your background even further away from your camera.

2. Turn you camera into Manual Mode.

3. Choose the smallest f-number that available. F-number means Aperture. Aperture is Aperture is the size of the opening in the lens when a picture is taken.
large apertures (where lots of light gets through) are given f/stop smaller numbers and smaller apertures (where less light gets through) have larger f-stop numbers.
So, f/5.6 is in fact a much larger aperture than f/22.

4. Dont forget with the ISO setting and the shutter speed. Use higher ISO when you are in a low light situation.
But if you are in direct sunlight, use 100.

5. Make your shutter speed faster. Shutter speed is the amount of time that the shutter is open. the faster your shutter speed the less impact camera shake will have and the more you’ll freeze any movement in your shots.

6. Use Manual Focus, and focus only the object you want to take.

7. Snap!

Well, maybe the result is not always nice, it maybe turn out darker, or blurry, or too much light.. but keep trying guys! Practice makes perfect.
I hope this will be helpful for you : )

Ten. (At last.. Updated!)

2009-08-05T16:42:00.000-07:00

Hello people! How are you doing? How have you been?
Gosh, it's like AGES since i last updated my blog. Whoa.
As days go by, and fade to night, the clocks keep ticking, and
things have changed. But no, i haven't. Yet. Okay, maybe a bit hehe

Well these are 10 things i've been through for this last 2 (or 3?) months.
hmm, where could i start?

1. Singapore? Oh it was cancelled, which was i was so grateful it happened, knowing that
i might be suffered Swine Flu if i went to Singapore at that time. Coz i personally think
that Swine Flu spreads damn rapidly all over the world! The student-exchange will be held
next January but i dont know if i am in or not coz the national exam's getting nearer
and nearer and i have to focus.

2. Jakarta. Instead of Singapore, i spent my holiday at Jakarta and i had great time
there.

By zyra4869, shot with NIKON D60 at 2009-08-05

3. Do you listen to P!ATD? And do you know the song titled "She had the world"? It's absolutely gorgeous.

"I dont love you, I am just passing the time.
You could love me if i knew how to lie.
But WHO COULD LOVE ME?
I am out of my mind.
Throwing a line out to sea.
To see if i can catch a dream"

I love this song. I am addicted. It has deep meaning for me.

4. Started new term at XII IPS 2. Rite, gotta have new friends there, but it turned out that
i was in the same class with my bests like, vidy, baney, ndeso, ateng LOL, ballly, RE and the
funny ones like idham and randa and sugik! Whoa. Glad to be there.
By zyra4869 at 2009-08-05

5. There's only one man i truly love. My dad. The other boys are rubbish. There, i changed my mind! Yay.

6. Becoming a model is a total no for me. 100 %. So when i hung out in a mall and
was ever offered to be a model , i was like "NO." and walked away. And this happened again at DBL, okay i was going
to refuse it..errr what is it called? "Spot in the crowd?" Red A stuff. Whatever it is called, they took my picture
and when i was on my way back to my seat i was hoping *crossed fingers* i wasnt the chosen 'model' who appeared on the paper the next day, and there i wasnt!
Thank God, coz i genuinely have no ideas about being a model and what for? After all they just choose the Chinese ones.

By zyra4869, shot with NIKON D60 at 2009-08-05

7. Now i love twitting! LOVE IT. The most brilliant social site ever made!
It's so damn easy and i can broadcast like, EVERYTHING. I follow famous people and i'm inspired.
It's useful. I swear it is. Follow mine, guys!

8. I have a new hair-cut. The messy one. I used to have the 'well-behaved girl' hair cut. Long (I might add, VERY LONG) and straight. I was bored coz it didnt reflect who i am. I love messing around and i tend to break school rules. I'm not the 'it' girl, the clever one, the one who knows all the answers and raises hands if teacher asks. Nope. I am no good at math, or mandarin (yeah,rite), or history, or accountancy, or art.
I am used to put my cellphone inside my rucksack which i usually put on my desk so i can use my cellphone (which was hidden inside the rucksack) while the teacher is explaining boring stuff. What for? You are wasting time ma'am, it's already stated in our books. Sorry.
Yeah i am that kind of girl. You get the idea, rite?
I am the lazy girl and i will always be the last girl who submits my
homeworks. Hell yeaaaah i'm a rebel!

By zyra4869, shot with NIKON D60 at 2009-08-05

9. What else? Oh and i'm planning to buy new lens for my camera. And i am going to learn photograpy seriously. Buy books and ask the experts or browsing photographers' site and learn from their tips. Okay, this is just a plan.

10. I felt tired always asking the same thing to God. Over and over again.. I knew He heard me. But..It's just not helping me much. But now i realize, i have been asking what i want, not what i need : )
Now, all i can do is waiting. Waiting the miracle to come.

By zyra4869, shot with NIKON D60 at 2009-08-05

Okay that's all from me. See you guys.

XOXOXOXO,

Zyra Brenda

PS : ALL PHOTOS WERE TAKEN BY ME. EVEN THE SNAPSHOT ONES. LOL.

Distraction

2009-06-12T00:57:00.000-07:00

Hey. Hello peopleeeeeeeeeeee. Sorry for the late update yaaa.
By the way, I’ve got so many things to do this month. Busy busy busy.
To be honest, I am so fed up of all these distraction, but what else I can do?

The good news is… holiday’s coming! Whoa whoa whoa. Are you going to travel? Or spend your holiday at home? Well I am going to traveeel. I am so excited with this holiday. Don’t know why? (Yeah, whereas I do. Urrgh, I REALLY DO)

Besides the holiday stuff, there are things which make my mind and my whole head are ‘FULL’.

Him. My only mood-booster. The one who makes my life more cheerful, and optimistic. The one who makes me say “God, thanks for all the things You’ve given to me. I am so thankful for that.” and he makes me stop complaining and grunting, and all. Geez, do you know how much I NEED YOU? Do you? Do you know how I am so delighted being around you? DO YOU?

Wishes. Been talking to God, don’t know if it’s helping or not? God, hear my voice raised in petition, as I cry to you for help, as I raise my hands, Lord, toward your holly of hollies.

Holidays (again)

Shoes and ankle boots. No comments.

My uncle’s wedding. Whoaa my uncle is literally getting married. Whoa whoa whoa. It really is disaster.hahaha.

And him again.
Hah!

I left you my photos @ cccl (again) with Vania Putri. And actually, ndeso.
Soory so gk mejengin pict mu. Blur smua syg, trust me : ) hehe.

By zyra4869, shot with NIKON D60 at 2009-06-12

By zyra4869, shot with NIKON D60 at 2009-06-12

For Him : )

2009-05-31T20:47:00.000-07:00

Lily Allen's Who'd Have Known exactly describes how is my life now : )
It's 5 o'clock in the morning
Conversation got boring
You said you're going to bed soon
So I snuck off to your bedroom
And I thought I'd just wait there
Til I heard you come up the stairs
I pretended I was sleeping
And I was hoping you would creep in
With me
You put your arm around my shoulder
It was as if the room got colder
We moved closer in together
And started talking bout the weather
Said tomorrow would be fun
We can watch A Place In The Sun
I didn't know where this was going
When you kissed me
Are you mine?
Are you mine?
Cause I stay here all the time
Watching telly, drinking wine
Who'da known, who'da known
When you flash up on my phone
I'd no longer feel alone
No longer feel alone
Let's just stay
Let's just stay
I wanna lie in bed all day
We'll be laughing all the way
Told your friends
They all know
We exist but we're taking it slow
Now let's just see how we go
Now let's see how we go

PS; Buat kamu. yg sibuk basketan terus gara2 mau ad DBL smgat ya jeleeek :)

Surprisingly?

2009-05-24T03:14:00.000-07:00

Huaah it took like forever updating my blog zzzz, well, i've been so busy these days.
I was ill a week ago, but now, i am getting a bit better.
Hmm, guess what, pals?
I am accepted for being one of school representatives to join twinning program (sorta student exchange program) to Singapore!
Wooah it's worth the selection tests deh. Parah banget tes-tes nya, it's deadly tiring, believe me,
since the test had been held for 4 days in a row.

So, i hope i would have a nice buddy to stay in my home soon. :)

About a week ago, or so, my friend, pus, celebrated her 17th party at House of Sampoerna.
and .. i must say, it wasn't as great as i thought it would be. Coz, i didnt recognize most
of her friends :D well, we are not at the same school,fyi. But, i knew a few lah hehe.
The party was nice nonetheless, but not as fun as asri's was.

By zyra4869, shot with NIKON D60 at 2009-05-24

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By zyra4869, shot with NIKON D60 at 2009-05-24

By zyra4869, shot with NIKON D60 at 2009-05-24

PSS: I am currently listening to Taylor Swift's You Belong with Me. Hmm, looks like someone's story? lol.

Holiday's Over

2009-05-09T08:09:00.000-07:00

Argh, and exams are waiting exactly before my eyes.
But, i've had a lot of fun during this holiday : )
I did some shopping @ tp twice, wow i've run out all my money T.T
I attended my friend's party @ agis, and the best thing was ..
I could read comic strips of detective conan as long as i wanted!

By zyra4869 at 2009-05-09

By zyra4869, shot with NIKON D60 at 2009-05-09

By zyra4869, shot with NIKON D60 at 2009-05-09

haha, some week,huh?
emmm, talking about my facebook. I am sorrry, guys. It's been a long time since i've updated
my facebook, and to be honest i am not interested in facebook. Seriously.
i've used my internet connection almost 10 hours per day during this holiday. But, i never
updated my facebook. I use my internet connection for things that are more interesting.
Such as, reading manga, downloading videos, or movie trailers, or e-books, and updating my blog,
and stuff like that.
But mostly, i spent my time in front of my notebook to READ MANGA, especially detective conan!
Geez, i truly am his big fan : ),
and this is my favorite scene: (since it's so romaaaantic, and when i thought how long ran had waited for shinichi, i got carried away and geez, i came up to this conclusion that "their love is worth the fight" )

Haha feel free to call me geek and freak : )

X File

2009-04-25T21:21:00.000-07:00

My friends in my class get used to make fun of me. They hid my iPod, my cell phone, and even my rucksack! And when I finally found them all, suddenly they sang “Happy Birthday” song for me. Oh God, it’s not even my birthday!
But about two weeks ago or so, when the seniors at my school came to the each junior classes to apologize if they did something wrong and asked for our blessings to pass the national exam, they started making fun of me again.
Well, my ex is a senior at my school. We had gone steady for a long time enough. We ended our relationship long time agooo as well. It’s already over. But my friends thought it wasn’t. So, when He and his whole class came to my class, my whole class yelled at him, yelled at me, laughed at both of us. It’s embarrassing and annoying. They started making joke about us. Hey, enough guys..
Because the thing is..
We’ve moved on.
He’s moved on and so have I.
It’s already over. I don’t love him at all. We are just friend.
Maybe, when I had the break-up recently at that time, yes I still loved him.
But it’s NOW. We’re all the way over. I am not mending broken now, since it’s already mended. Well, got it, guys?

Ah, I am having mid tests tomorrow! And I haven’t studied at all. So just wish me luck ya!

By zyra4869, shot with NIKON D60 at 2009-04-25

By zyra4869 at 2009-04-25

PS: Take a look at my book shelf and my desk. Jeez, it’s so untidy, messy, and sloppy! Gotta take care of them. Byeeeee

Anjrit!

2009-04-25T08:46:00.001-07:00

Postingan kali ini lagi beda, pake bahasa indonesia.
Kenapa? Lagi pengen aja.
Sebenernya enggak juga sih, lagi pengen marah aja, sm maki-maki orang,
maklum orang yang biasanya nenangin saya lagi koleps,mau mati kali. MASA BODO DEH.
LIAT AJA PEMBALASANKU! (Lah ko jadi kayak sailor moon gini?)

Pake bhs indonesia tuh bisa lebih keliatan kejemnya, maknanya bisa NYAMPEK.
contoh : anjing banget tu cowo, errrgh. nyadar ga sih dia sapa? TEMEN JUGA ENGGAKK.
DASAR ORANG SARAP!
translate to English: he is such a dog, errrgh. Doesnt he realize who he is? He is
even not my friend. MAN WHO MUST BE OFF HIS HEAD!

Satu kata: Ribet.
Dua kata ding, Ribet banget.

Gini yah, Saya punya temen deket. Cantik. Lumayan deh daripada saya (Tapi manisan saya sih zz)
Nah, dia itu punya temen cowok anak kuliahan. Kuliah di Universitas TOP di Surabaya
(Mantan saya abis keterima disitu juga baru2 ini.) Nah, saya kenal anak kuliahan itu dari temen saya itu.
Anaknya lucu, trus kalo bawa mobil rada suka ngebut (Dia pernah nyupirin saya, sm temen2 saya), trus dia fotografer juga, suka slalom di deket juanda (mungkin anda tau?), MEROKOK, dan kalo diliat dari perilakunya dia muslim, tp jarang solat!(unlike me,wahaha). Gara2 nganterin saya&teman2 hari itu, dia mnta nomer hape saya.
Wah diluar dugaan deh, saya kira dia ngegebet temen saya yang cantik itu. Saya kasih dong, dia kan orang nya baik.
Eh tapi diluar dugaan juga, baru 2hari smsan dia udah manggil saya dengan sebutan sayang2 lah, trus sms saya hampir tiap menit.
Berhubung saya ini ank ips, saya tuh perhitungan. Jadi satu hari tuh bisa ngabisin 5000 smpe 7000 lah (cuma buat sms doang)
trus kalo dikali 30 hari, 1 bulan saya habis 150rb cuma buat sms dia! Arrggggh. Dia juga bukan sapa2 saya kan. Iya kalo dia pacar saya. Sejak itu, saya g bales smsnya. Waktu itu saya mikirnya, Ah palingan he'll take it for granted. Dia kan anak
kuliahan juga,cewek2 di PTN itu kan cantik2. Tapi, beberapa hari kemudian. Dia mulai sms2 saya lagi, telpon2 saya.
Gigih banget. Well, saya gak akan luluh. Dia sama sekali bukan tipe saya, mungkin dia pinter, tapi dia merokok, trus jarang solat! klise sih, tapi 3 hal itu PENTING menurut saya! Kalo orang yang rajin solat, otomatis dia baik (gak ringan tangan,gak
kasar,dkk), dia dekat sama Tuhan, trus orang yang rajin solat (benar2 yg rajin lo ya, maksud saya kalo lagi jalan2 di mall gitu dia juga gak lupa solat,walopun musholla nya ada di basement!) itu kebanyakan pola pikirnya uda dewasa, gak dikit2 jealous.
yah udah bisa bayangin kan?
Dia nerornya udah kebangeten. Sms saya sampe minta maaf berkali2, sampe ngancem mau sujud di hadapan saya. Trus sms saya supaya saya jangan ninggalin dia. bujubuneng deh, emang saya mamanya apa??
Dia telpon saya sering banget sampe batere hape saya low bat, terpaksa saya alihkan smua panggilan yang masuk di hape saya.
Urrrgh please, gimana kalo dia jadi cowok saya? mungkin saya lagi tidur didatengin deh!
dan anyway, dia gak salah apa2? mungkin dia manggil aku sayang2 itu, tp terlepas dari itu, dia gak ada salah apa2!

Saya stop bales sms dia kan cuma karena saya nggak mau buang pulsa saya dengan percuma sama orang yang sama sekali enggak saya suka!
dan lagi dengan ditambahnya sms2 dan telpon2 yg kayak teror itu, dia jadi nambah ketidaksukaan saya terhadap dia!
aaaargh what should i do? Masa saya bilang ke dia kalo saya nggak bales sms dia gara2 saya orang yang pelit pulsa?

Whoa, This Is So Wrong.

2009-04-24T08:58:00.000-07:00

I have a question for you,people.
"I've passed out these days. Waiting for someone I exactly know who doesn't love me, or even know me is deadly exhausting. and i might add.. suck. And this very circumstance could never go worse since my best friend (YOU MIGHT READ THIS POSTING, AND WHEN YOU REALIZE IT'S YOU I'M TALKING ABOUT, PLEASE JUST LISTEN TO ME,WELL, I NEED YOU URGENTLY BRO!) is gone nowhere.
And here it's the question.. do you believe in the power of the prayer? when you prayed, i mean when you actually prayed and held your hands up, wishing something. Do you believe someday Lord will make it comes true? As a matter of fact, i quite hesitate. Well, if everything has been written down, so what for?
what for we pray for things we know we cant change??
But despite those hesitation things, i do believe in miracles
Whoops, did i go too far?"

hmm, anyhoo i've cut my hair loooh! hahaha. so i took some crazzzzy pictures with my
little sister. Well, guess who's older!

By zyra4869 at 2009-04-24

Having A Talk in His Car

2009-04-19T05:48:00.000-07:00

"I really dont like people who are beautiful, and famous but they dont know anything"
"For example ?"
"Hmm, i'll tell you but i have to kill you after telling you"
"WHAT?"
"Haha i'm kidding. Well, dont tell anyone, will you?"
"OKAY"
and then i whispered on his ear.
"hoooa, i've already known that you dont like her, zy.."
"at all. AT ALL"
"yaaa yaa. i know. But all that matters is she is beautiful. hahaha"
"Well, if you think she is, i disagree"
"Beautiful, from outside-look"
"Seriously, i dont know what kind of girl boys want exactly? is it just beautiful?"
"Well.. 'Dari mata turun ke hati',kan?"
"Arrgh,that concept doesnt exist anymore, i think."
"Still. Since we are still yooounggg. Get yourself happy, show your pretty boyfriends and girlfriends
off to everybody, and they'll envy"
"Just.. that. So the point is to show them off?"
"Yeaa, but not quite right sih.. no need to be serious lah. Live your life happily, and you will end happily as well"
"So.. would you be ashamed if you had an ugly girlfriend? but she was clever, and she was faithful to you?"
"Hmm. It depends."
"Just answer it"
"Maaaybe. Yaah who on earth wants an ugly girlfriend?"
"Haahha, yaah you're right,after all. But, does it still matter, if you are a grown-up guy?"
"Nope. I wish. But i am going to find... the perfect one"
"Hey, nobody's perfect"
"But..there is almost-perfect one. Amiin"
"I'll pray for you deh"
"Thanks"
"Will you pray for me too?"
"Definitely, nope"
"Heyyyyyy!"
"Yaa yaa i will"
"Well, i wish i could love him in a right way. But i still dont know what exactly the right way is"
"What d'you mean?"
"I love someone. Soo madly. But, i think i am not allowed to love him."
"Why?"
"Geez,you've asked so many questions today. Will you just shut up and listen to me?"
"OKAY"
"Lord, it just ain't right"
"..."
"..."
"Hey, dont make such an awkward silence dong!"
"Haah? You've just said i had to be quiet!"
"A moment ago,didn't i?not now"
"Hmmmm.."
"I think i still haven't found what i am looking for.."
"What are you looking for?"
"Hmm..a true love : )"

Maybe it's him. Maybe it's you. Maybe it's my friend, maybe it's my first love.
Well, i am waiting,Lord.

Just So You Know :)

2009-04-19T04:21:00.000-07:00

well, i've got a week-off : ) Woohoo, i've been waiting for so loong to get EVEN A DAY for A REST
Actually, i am not going to rest all day, since i got so many homework! Damn, my school is so geek
I am having mid-test for the next two weeks, after all.
Talk about my feeling now..well..i must confess, i need to tell him i dont love him.
and i dont like him.
Very much.
Hey, boy. You've just known me! It's ironically silly saying that words. You dont even know my birthday I bet.
You are growing way too fast.

Rrrrrrr. Pus, help me pus!

Yesterday, i came to my VERY CLOSE FRIEND's BIRTHDAY, asvit @ D'COST Royal Plaza. Whoaa all of her friends came to her party, even ajeng and my 'dad' fajar came. I miss them like crazy :'(
Anyway, Happy Birthday ya kak : )

PS: Good luck for my seniors who are having National Exam tomorrow!
and for you, who sent me a message yesterday midnight and asked for my forgiveness..
i've forgiven for all the things you've done to me : )

I've Lost Someone Who Listens to Me Once Again

2009-04-11T20:29:00.000-07:00

... but i believe every cloud has silver lining : )

Happy Birthday Syifaaa!

2009-04-11T20:19:00.000-07:00

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By zyra4869, shot with NIKON D60 at 2009-04-11

Pict1 @ D'COST
Pict2 Birthday Boy Chiepaaaa : )
Pict3 Top&Bottom

Making Video Clip for Art Lesson

2009-04-11T20:01:00.000-07:00

We made it in Kenjeran Beach. We went there by IMUT's car haha

By zyra4869 at 2009-04-11

Kenjeran beach was so crowded and dirty. Moreover, we got there at 11 a.m, when the sun was exactly over our head, so we got sunburn. Jeez, i didnt like it all.
Despite the crowd, and high temperature we still took picture there, actually i did it.

By zyra4869, shot with NIKON D60 at 2009-04-11

By zyra4869 at 2009-04-11

All photos were taken by me and edited by me

House Of Sampoerna

2009-04-11T19:20:00.000-07:00

I went there last Friday along with my BFF. They are Puspita, Monyenkk, and Asvit. We took some pictures in 3 places at once (HoS,Jl.Gula,CitraLand) in order to fulfill pus' request haha. More photos..coming right up yaa!

By zyra4869 at 2009-04-11

this photo was taken by Andi (Friend of Puspita's haha) and edited by me

Exams (again)

2009-04-08T18:59:00.000-07:00

On next Monday, i'll have accountancy test, I haven't studied yet,honestly
since, i was listening to my iPod while i was studying
so......just wish me luck : )

By zyra4869, shot with NIKON D60 at 2009-04-08

oh yea, at my EF class i've just learned PROVERBS, and i found a proverb that i liked the most
"pretty is as pretty does"
which means...
"if a good-looking person doesnt do good things, being good-looking has no value at all"
see, if you are beautiful, famous, sexy,or whatever.. but you don't do good things
you are just bad.
D'you all agree, people?

ps; thanks to ndesoooo for giving me the smartest @ facebook top friends
actually, i am not that smart. i am just...lucky. hahaha.

Just Because I Am Not Crying, It Doesn't Mean I Am Okay

2009-04-02T19:42:00.000-07:00

By zyra4869, shot with NIKON D60 at 2009-04-02

Geez, this year had been the most depressing year in my life.

Anger

2009-03-30T17:26:00.000-07:00

Damn, i got so many assignments today.
Seriously, i need some rest!
i wish i could have the day-off, even just one day..

By zyra4869, shot with NIKON D60 at 2009-03-30

At Last.....Escaping

2009-03-29T16:21:00.000-07:00

By zyra4869, shot with NIKON D60 at 2009-03-29

By zyra4869, shot with NIKON D60 at 2009-03-29

By zyra4869, shot with NIKON D60 at 2009-03-29

pict1.CCCL, and their smoothies : )
pict2. KOMENG. Miss you like crazy meng. I've never told her my problems. Like The boy i like, The miserable
fucking asshole boy whom I USED TO LOVE, or my pile of school tasks, or my friends at school. All i ever
told her is laughter. I always leave my problems behind faaaar awaaay when she sits next to me. That's what friends
are for,anyway.
pict3.My little sister. I adore her so much : )

Exhausted

2009-03-29T16:12:00.000-07:00

I got exams for a month in a row, and I got a huge problem which made my life such a mess.
Okay, i know there are some people who love working hard, solving a problem, studying and etc
but absolutely it wasn't me
i found this picture in my camera

By zyra4869, shot with NIKON D60 at 2009-03-29

i like it. Seeing people busy and walking in hurry is weirdly fun : ) however, i loathe being busy.
all i want is much time. So i can... let's say.. seeing movies as many as possible or..blogging or..
anything could make me feel comfort and happy.

but life isn't fair.
see, my own world turned upside down these days, and i cant turn it normal again.
and i need FRIENDS, who LISTEN to me, who UNDERSTAND me, who LOVE me

By zyra4869, shot with NIKON D60 at 2009-03-29

By zyra4869, shot with NIKON D60 at 2009-03-29

oh fuck, i am so pathetic i can kill somebody!

My new sneaker

2009-03-26T21:58:00.000-07:00

I love my sneaker

By zyra4869, shot with NIKON D60 at 2009-03-26

Contact:
Chemical Warning's Friendster
or by phone: 085645378270 (Dilla)

Urban Art Festival @ CCCL

2009-03-26T18:44:00.000-07:00

It was Saturday, i went to CCCL to see Urban Art Festival.
That was my first time i went to that place. I came with ndeso(CITRAPERTIWI) and vania.

By zyra4869, shot with NIKON D60 at 2009-03-26

and i took some pictures there.

By zyra4869, shot with NIKON D60 at 2009-03-26

By zyra4869, shot with NIKON D60 at 2009-03-26

By zyra4869, shot with NIKON D60 at 2009-03-26

i visited the library as well, and read some books about photograph.
and found this picture, i simply loved it.

By zyra4869, shot with NIKON D60 at 2009-03-26

glad to be there.

those pictures were taken randomly by us and edited by me.

Making a Movie

2009-03-23T23:10:00.000-07:00

It was Sunday, and i got task to make a movie.
So, my friends and i went to THR and made it there.
i left some pictures we took when we were there, here.

By zyra4869 at 2009-03-23

this photo was taken by Vidyana Putri, and edited by me.

Classmates

2009-03-23T23:02:00.000-07:00

guys, i love you all the way :)

By zyra4869, shot with N73 at 2009-03-12

By zyra4869, shot with N73 at 2009-03-12

this picture were taken by SELF TIMER and edited by me!

Gotta Keep Holding On

2009-03-11T21:14:00.000-07:00

Friends, the ones who always be there, even in the darkest time of my life.......so far.
When i need them, they always be there. They dont speak, dont babble, they just.. listen.
Sometimes, listening and being silent are the best thing you could do, when your friend shares her/his life story.
and that's true.
I left you some pictures of my boyfriends @ school, they borrowed my camera and took pictures by themselves.
Hey, don't you think they're good photographers?

By zyra4869, shot with NIKON D60 at 2009-03-23

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By zyra4869, shot with NIKON D60 at 2009-03-23

which one is the best, guys?
those picture were taken randomly by them and edited by me.

Oktomat

2009-03-11T00:20:00.001-07:00

I bought it months ago, and got exciting.
despite my 'photoshop' ability to split a picture into eight pictures,
it's simply fun to have this lomo.

just one snap, and voila! i got 8 pictures.

By zyra4869, shot with NIKON D60 at 2009-03-23

Hello world, I'm back : )

2009-03-10T23:44:00.000-07:00

Hello big world :) actually, this is my second blog.i got bored with my first, so i made a new one. anyhoo, i've decided to add more photos in this blog. enjoy them, everyone!

love,
zyra brenda